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617. It's a choice.

2011-12-31T00:50:00.000+08:00

Decisions.

It's not easy.

Once it's made, there's no turning back.

I don't know if I make the right one.

I always have this feeling of it happening again.

The more I think about it, the more it's haunting me.

Going through the same thing all over again.

Once is enough. Having to go through it again wasn't what I wanted.

I must have done something wrong somewhere.

Or else this wouldn't happened.

What's bothering me, doesn't affect you.

Over-thinking?

I guess so.

I'm never good at making things right.

No matter how many times I apologised.

Ending 2011 the same way I ended 2010.

Isn't a great feeling at all.

P/S: I still have my doubts.

616. Happening too many times.

2011-12-21T17:00:00.027+08:00

`Never make permanent decisions on temporary feelings.`

It's like happening to me again.

The same reason but different people.

This is why I've this phobia of getting close to someone.

They will eventually leave or hurt you in the end.

Where did I went wrong this time?

If someone were to that to you, how would you react?

The same way I did?

I never want to see you again.

P/S: Why am I even bothered with this?

615. You and you.

2011-11-19T10:39:00.000+08:00

Blogging through my itouch. Oh well, kinda lazy to open my laptop. So where do I start. Wait wait, why am I even bothered about this.Oh because I cared. Just look at the things are going right now. Perfect isn't it, just the way you wanted it to be.Please lah, don't say it when you yourself don't clearly understand the true meaning.Maybe I still have doubts about you. Clearly I do.And for you, I glad that you're doing fine.Especially with what you've been through now.Things are supposed to change. People are bound to change.Sometimes I just wonder where do I stand.P/S: We have different ways of prioritizing things.Oh maybe I know w

614. Disappointed.

2011-11-13T23:49:00.000+08:00

Last update was like 2 months ago?

Woah, that long.

I almost forgot about blogger.

All thanks to fb,twitter & tumblr.

Oh well, life's been good so far.

Sem 2.

Kinda of stress with all the school stuffs.

Too relax this sem.

Must cut down those laziness.

This sem timetable kinda sucks.

Especially Friday.

End at 1, the next class at 6!

Oh well, got to endure it.

GOGO!

You know what, I'm not gonna expect anymore.

Especially from you.

Just go ahead and live your life man.

P/S: Decisions.

613. Leaving it or saving it?

2011-09-08T23:05:00.001+08:00

Last update a month ago!!

Well, I am back!

Last post I mentioned about holidays.

I am having holidays again!!

But now it's a little longer than before.

Semester 1 ended 2-3weeks? back.

Here I am rotting at home doing not useful things like playing games.

What do you expect when you're damn bored.

Been wanting to go out to have a photography session.

Shall have it soon! Maybe before I go to the trip.

A month ago, my mind is still wondering.

Wondering what is going to happen, what is happening and what has happened.

*Star-Plans, *Circle-Bursary, *Arrow-CCA

One after another.

All planned.

September is going to be hectic for me.

The arrow pointing down is the days I am having CCA.

After weeks of not attending CCA, I have to go next week!

Giving it a miss the following week.

P/S: Forgotten.

612. What were you thinking?

2011-06-07T20:18:00.001+08:00

The holidays are finally here!!

Happy? YES I AM!

It's been a month or more since the first day of school.

Time is passing by really fast.

Being around friends is the best.

The feeling of having people around that never fails to make your day.

Well, been working out lately.

From not being able to do 5 sit-ups properly to being able to do 20 sit-ups.

*thumbsup for me* ;D

Increasing it each day by 5 or more.

Yeah.

Exams ends today.

Pity those who still having exams.

Training resumes next week.

During holidays!!! :(

But it's okay, I need to exercise every week.

Keeping my hair longer.

Wearing a dress soon.

Let's turn a little girlish.

No harm.

"I am strong.

I am independent.

I am not you."

"The most "wonderful" thing is that you were too ignorant to realise that you have hurt people."

P/S: WHAT?!

611. Again.

2011-05-28T18:53:00.001+08:00

School has been occupying my time.

Not forgetting CCA.

Every training ends at 9plus.

I feel sleepy the next day of school.

Why am I focused on one person who only knows how to bring me down when others are trying to put a smile on my face?

Taking advantage of me aren't you?

You can go and kiss your own ass man.

P/S: No more trust in you anymore.

610. Trying.

2011-05-16T21:28:00.000+08:00

4th week of school.

I'm not looking forward to next week because that week is packed with tests/quizzes.

See how time flies very fast.

I'm trying to cope every subject/module I'm assigned to.

Damn it's tough.

Everything is new.

1+1 = 1 (Only implies for IT and Engine related stuffs)

Maths is one of the killer subjects.

Next will be WebDD.

The rest are good.

I miss the usual peeps already. :(

There's a little tiny hope.

You wouldn't do the same.

So it's fine with me as long as I tried.

P/S: Life's like this.

609. Better in time.

2011-05-07T21:12:00.000+08:00

3rd week of school in two days time.

Time travels really fast.

It seems like yesterday was the first week of school.

Well to be honest, I'm starting to love the atmosphere around Tp.

On a brighter note, I got into _______!

Alhamdullilah Syukur.

:))

Can't deny that I miss secondary school.

The atmosphere and friends around.

Teachers especially.

In Tp, I still see some familiar faces from Spf.

We smiled at each other.

It's good to know that there's people who knows us.

It's been awhile since I last met them.

Miss you guys leh.

Sighhh.

:'/

Don't worry about me, worry about yourself.

P/S: Tak guna.

608. It's never coming back, trust me.

2011-04-30T13:30:00.000+08:00

1st week of school was great.

There's a lot of new things I have to learn.

And the most pain in the ass subject will be E.Maths.

Not Elementary maths, it's Engineering maths = Amaths.

The rest of the subject was okay.

Starting to enjoy school. :D

With outgoing classmates, 3years to come will be alright.

InsyaAllah.

Looking forward to the CCA's tryout.

I hope 1 of it will fit me well.

What happened?

History repeating itself.

P/S: Why?

607. Oh yes, you.

2011-04-24T00:30:00.000+08:00

First day of school is tomorrow!!

Well, orientation went well.

Classmates is out-going and friendly.

7 girls in my class and the rest boys.

INE 01.

\m/

Saw a few familiar faces.

&not forgetting some of the GLs from FOC.

I've not pack my bag nor prepare anything for school.

List of things that needs to be done by tonight;

*Buy stationaries.

*Think of what to wear.

and etc etc.

What is happening around me now?

Surprised me.

Shock me.

Everyone does.

Well, that's life. Full of surprises.

I don't need your explanation anymore.

Take everything.

As long as you are happy.

I'm happy for you.

P/S: It's a war that nobody wants to surrender.

606. Lazy. Sick. Tired.

2011-04-13T00:40:00.000+08:00

2 more days. 6 more days. 13 more days.

Excited?

Yes I am and nervous too!

OMG.

The thing that people always say to me; you'll find one in poly.

InsyaAllah.

I leave it to Allah.

HE knows best.

Sabar itu separuh dari iman.

Camp in less than 24hours.

Excited for it. I hope sore throat will be gone by tomorrow.

InsyaAllah.

I'll be bringing my medicine along. Incase.

Emergency cases.

What else do you want from me?

P/S: Temporary.

605. The only thing I want to do is live life like tomorrow is the end.

2011-04-09T02:40:00.000+08:00

I want this! Someone get it for me please!

And I need someone now.

Yes. Where are you?

Because I try every way to get it right.

Yesterday was good. Oh wait, it was great.

Spending time with 3 different people.

Life is short, spend time with people you love.

Because you may not know what can happened tomorrow.

If you're still breathing tomorrow, Thank God for giving you another day to see the ones you love.

Okay, I'm being a bit of emotional here.

It's nothing actually, just a thought.

It's true, isn't it?

"If you tell the truth, you don't have to remember anything."

~ Mark Twain

Well sometimes it's not what you said, it's your action that shows.

A terrible liar.

"Precordial Catch Syndrome (PCS)"

P/S: Time, Faith, Patience, Hope.

604. You're never sincere enough.

2011-04-07T21:03:00.001+08:00

~

If you ever come back.

It's not gonna to be the same anymore.

That I promise you.

School starting in 2 weeks time.

And FOC is next week!

Excited for it?

YES I AM.

I can't wait for school but I'm scared plus nervous of the environment.

It's gonna be way different.

I hope everything will be cool.

InsyaAllah.

It's either coincidence or just planned beforehand.

Whatever it is, I am good.

It's just all those hidings and all that stuffs, you really have to do it don't you?

P/S: Handle it yourself shitass!

603. The truth is, I never stop hoping.

2011-03-31T22:58:00.000+08:00

I'm so lazy to write about things happening lately.

So let the pictures do the talking alright! :D

29th March! <3

27th March! <3

23rd March! <3

18th March! <3

11th March! <3

2nd March! <3

All that in March!

See how many times I went out in a month!

There's more than this!

Short meet-ups, cycling and gym!

More to come next week!

Spending time with the people before school officially start.

I look forward to school but at the same time I'm scared.

How now brown cow?!

P/S: Patience.

602. If you think I'm happy, think again.

2011-03-28T01:47:00.001+08:00

"The happiest people has the most problems?"

"People who smile a lot, is hiding their pains?"

It's really scary at how things are going on now. :/

Anyway cousin is back at Egypt.

I hope she's doing fine there.

P/S: I will try.

601. Tell me how am I supposed to trust you again?

2011-03-13T02:10:00.001+08:00

It's 13th March today.

School is going to be next month!

I'M SO NOT READY!

Not enough clothes in my wardrobe.

I want to have at least 100 each: t-shirts/pants/shoes/etc.

Going to spend my money wisely.

Next week is going to be SHOPPING WEEK!

Shop till you cry!

You better not mess with the other side of me.

Oh don't worry, I won't kill you.

I just want you to know what you need to know.

Oh my, how could you be like that when I regard you as my friend.

~~In fact, a good friend.~~

I might update this blog 2-3times a week.

If there's anything interesting to share then I will update.

I officially have a tumblr.

"Reblog" is a fun thing to do when you're bored.

My life used to be boring back then.

Eversince 2011 kicks in, it's been better each day.

With outings, short meet-ups.

I'm glad to have them as my friends.

I'm refering to everyone out there if you saw me once this year.

Thanks for making the first 3months a something for me to remember.

Thank You Allah for everything.

Alhamdullilah.

Okay, I shall buy one sketch book soon!

Gonna paste pictures, write quotes and etc in it!

P/S: Memories are the best thing you want to remember.

600. Six hundred post since 2/10/2008.

2011-03-07T20:00:00.001+08:00

No more try, you & I.

I'm not gonna lie to you.

It was there and you didn't take the chance.

Been sick since Saturday.

Yeah, down with slight fever, cough + phlegm and aches everywhere.

When I'm sick, I tend to get really weak for 2-3days and then I'll be fine.

InsyaAllah.

I'm a good girl who eats her medicine day and night.

I still love myself okay!

Whoever still reads my blog, be it a stranger or a friend.

THANKS!

Sent the enrollment package.

Yes, like finally right!

I know!

It's troublesome oi!

But Thank Allah for making me finish everything with patience.

Alhamdullilah Syukur.

I may be a little TFB but what am I supposed to do if you're doing it too sia!

At least I'm being honest with people around me.

But you, is an exception I guess.

Opps, you asked for it.

You will get it, for sure.

I don't do revenge.

I let karma do it's job.

I'll just sit here and watch.

I'm a human being.

Being heartless isn't me.

I'm just the way I am, you don't like it, JSTFU.

You don't know what I've been through.

You don't know how it feels.

P/S: Your fault.

599. Say Hello To Goodbye.

2011-03-04T00:28:00.001+08:00

"I can't hate you any longer
I know I'm going to miss you.
I'll forget it and let it go."

I'm now officially not working.

Free bird to fly around.

This weeks been good.

Plans after plans.

Next week, I believe there's more to come.

Woah, slow down please.

I'm trying to maintain my acc amount.

Every outing needs money.

My last pay isn't in yet.

So chillax people!

I'm 95% done with the TP enrollment.

I got stressed up when it comes to the financial part.

Leceh please.

BAH!

Thank Allah, I finally did it.

Alhamdullilah.

Hey stranger, how you been?

I'm not ready for school.

I'm not ready for the retaking of private O.

I'm ready to say things out loud.

"We're still going on, like nobody really cares

And we just stopped feeling all the pain because

it's like a daily basic affair"
When you lose your way, turn to HIM.

P/S: InsyaAllah.

598.

2011-02-25T20:12:00.001+08:00

We don't need any explanation from each other.

I understand your actions.

It tells all.

"Sepanjang ku bisa atasi semua,
aku tetap diam."

Work is ending very soon.

TL has been asking me to work during weekends.

Told her that I'll give it a thought first.

I want to work but I want a little freedom.

Before school starts, I want to go work out, jogging and cycling.

Trying to get my figure back!

HAHAHAHA!

I mean get rid of the flabby stomach lah!

I also wanttttttttttttttt toooooooooooooooooooooooo

ENROL MY DRIVING LICENSE!

ANDDD

Applying for private O.

Yes, I decided to retake E.

Let's go through it again!

The 2ND time!

Gahh!

We will do just fine.

InsyaAllah.

I look into your eyes when you're talking.

Because the eyes tells the truth when you're lying.

1001 stories but none of it is convincing to me.

How?

There are many ways to doing it right.

First; Always be honest.

P/S: I believe.

597.

2011-02-21T11:08:00.001+08:00

Work is ending pretty soon.

Like very soon.

A week to go.

Well I enjoy working there though, no regrets.

Next plan is to get my body back to shape.

Prepare all the necessary stuffs for April.

Thanks ALLAH.

You always show me what's best for me.

We all know at a certain point, we got to move on.

" Life is short, so apologize & forgive when you still can,

'cause life can slip away in seconds. "

P/S: Time.

596. What the hell.

2011-02-17T20:53:00.000+08:00

"You and your excuses.

It never expires."

Something new.

Don't worry, I'm still the same old me except for a few minor adjustment.

If you don't hear from me, you're one of the changes.

Bitter heart.

It's not your fault, it's my fault for believing you never did something like that.

Thanks.

P/S: Find me when you need me.

595.

2011-02-16T19:42:00.000+08:00

"WATCH ME"

12 more days from today, I'm gonna be a free bird!

P/S: Don't try.

594. Missing In Action.

2011-02-12T21:00:00.000+08:00

Listen to what I say.

Cause I speak with sincerity.

Lying isn't my forte.

I do what I think is right.

P/S: My side of story.

593. We're going.

2011-02-10T20:26:00.000+08:00

Well the only things that keep me busy nowadays is work and outings with people.

Whoever was there to hear me out, I appreciate it a lot.

Sometimes I just need a second opinion on certain stuffs.

I'm very comfortable at work.

I mean not while doing work lah.

The friendly people there, the oh-so cooling environment and regular customers.

They are already making me miss them.

Smile & Laughter.

What more could I ask?

Well, I'm ending my contract soon!

Sungguh sedih.

:''/

Dunia kau sungguh world.

HAHAHAHAHAHA!

I've been thinking a lot nowadays.

I mean school, taking car license & etc.

So many things to do ah.

So how do I juggle everything?

Hmmm. :/

InsyaAllah I can.

I'm looking forward to school. ^^

But a little scared of the new environment.

Heh.

I mean the new people, new teachers & etc.

TARGETING THE FOOD THERE!

Alhamdullilah Syukur.

P/S: I'll never be the same if we ever meet again.

592. Nobody knows.

2011-02-06T01:16:00.002+08:00

I'm counting down the days till end of work.

Excited for it to end not because I don't wanna work.

It's because I've made plans for MARCH!

Before poly starts, gonna make myself a little FIT.

Watching over my diet after February.

(Y)

Not working today, I mean it's Sunday already right?!

HAHA!

Gonna spend my time wisely today!

Morning - Breakfast and rot at home!

Afternoon - Get myself ready for someone's BBQ pit.

Night - Have a little time on my own.

(Y)

Well it's kind of boring though but I'm fine with it.

Whatever you hear from someone, it might not be true.

The best is knowing it from the person.

Cause you never know what that someone might have in their mind.

Might be good or bad.

You decide, your choice.

Sebab, kau kawan yang paling "baik" yang aku pernah dapat.

Kawan yang sanggop buat semua ni.

Kawan macam kau campak dekat laut pun bagus.

Hidup menyusahkan orang.

Whoever I'm refering to doesn't matter.

Cause if the shoe fits well, it's you then.

I'm gonna survive this.

Insyaallah.

I survived it before didn't I?

YES, I DID.

You and your bullshit can go to hell.

Like I say, I'm gonna talk about this till one day I get tired of it.

For now, I never get tired cause I'm not giving up telling what's in my heart all this while.

Wanna know further, please dial 1800-kissyourass.

HAHA! _|_

"Menghilang entah ke mana perginya."

This is only the beginning.

P/S: WHAT!

591. Forever? Nah, as long as I live.

2011-02-02T00:30:00.001+08:00

"Trust is like a mirror, you can fix it if it's broken, but you can still see the crack in that mother fucker's reflection."

~ Lady Gaga.

I know I should be sleeping like right now.

But I'm not sleepy yet.

Listening to Sheikh Haikel - I am.

It reminds me of TPRAWKS!

Kau nak hidup ke nak mati ke nak terjun ke, itu kau punye pasal.

Tak nak masuk campor dalam hidup kau.

Well, work is *thumbsup*

The free stuffs, the awesome colleagues & the regular customers!

I know I'm gonna miss them when I leave the place.

Even the boss said it.

I will give you guys a visit after my departure.

*winkwink*

Less than 26more days to the end.

I got to cherish every moment there.

Despite the hard work carrying the heavy boxes, endless questions from customers & etc.

It's an experience gain.

(Y)

P/S: Time please take your own sweet time.

590. PITA.

2011-01-31T11:49:00.000+08:00

I always knew you would do that to me.

It's just that I didn't know which specific day.

If you did it with intention then you should know better.

Called yourself a friend?

You gotta be kidding me right?

If you think I was talking about you then be it.

If the shoe fits well, then you should be the one.

Well end of our times.

I'm glad GOD show(ed) me who you truly are.

I believe HE has better plans for me.

Well another PITA I've to overcome.

Today, tomorrow, the day after tomorrow and so on, HE plans it.

Not you.

-----------------------------------------------------

My 18th was good.

A good start this year.

Let's continue the good start till the end.

FEBRUARY;

WORK! WORK! WORK!

MARCH;

DRIVING LICENSE, TUITION, ENDLESS CLOTHES.

APRIL;

GONNA BE IN A BRAND NEW ATMOSPHERE/ENVIRONMENT.

IT MEANS MEETING NEW PEOPLE.

That's a rough idea of what's going to happen in the next coming month.

The rest is up to HIM.

Thanks ALLAH.

P/S: We gotta be who we are.

589. Real lies.

2011-01-26T01:08:00.000+08:00

I always have this question in my mind.

WHO TO TRUST?

I do trust a few people, a few means really can count with two hands.

"Love all, trust a few."

I don't know where this is going anyway.

So might as well we go our own ways.

Oh wait, we already did! YEAY!

(Y)

When things get hard, the only solution is to be strong.

P/S: I don't hear that from you.

588. I just can't figure it out.

2011-01-21T23:50:00.000+08:00

Sorry for being so straightforward on the previous post.

I know I'm being so straightforward nowadays, I don't know why.

But it's for the best isn't it?

A good change for me.

Trying to kick the habit of keeping things to myself.

But only certain stuffs.

I have nothing to say to you.

Thanks for doing that.

I'm sorry.

But it's too late to apologize.

P/S: Mistakes.

587. Apa salahku?

2011-01-20T22:20:00.000+08:00

Everybody needs someone to talk to.

I need one.

There's always someone isn't it?

I should have known all this would happened.

I guess, I didn't assume now.

Why?

I'm sick and tired, having to try every possible ways and what are you doing?

GOSH!

I don't know why.

Crying?

I have no more tears to waste on you.

If we are pretending, then I think we might as well don't.

I survived that period of time.

You weren't there for me.

You were there for someone else.

I didn't mind because I knew you will come and go.

All your words are just empty promises.

Oh please someone just tell me what to do.

My head says L, my heart says S.

So what now?

P/S: Thoughts.

586. 18TH.

2011-01-17T16:54:00.001+08:00

18th.

18 years of living in this world.

18 years of learning how to love, care and appreciate.

18years of ups and downs.

18years of being around wonderful people.

18years of everything.

THE AWESOME BIRTHDAY WISHES.

ALL OVER FACEBOOK, TWITTER, TEXT MESSAGES.

I LOVE YOU GUYS.

THE BEST WISH GOES TO ................................

EVERYONE LAH OF COURSE!!

Driving license coming up! ^^

(Y)

Never to expect things because when it turns out the other way round, you're just gonna be disappointed.

Trust me, I did.

P/S: 18TH!

\m/

585. IDFCA.

2011-01-14T21:08:00.000+08:00

2 days to 18th.

Probably celebrating with my family!

Family gathering pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

18 wishes on the 16th.

Work has been good, the workers there (Y).

Blueblack first starts to appear on my legs, now my hands too! :(

1 & 1/2 month to go!

YEAY!

I know I'm gonna miss working there!

So what now?

My fault?

Blame me?

Go ahead, I don't mind at all.

Told you, I don't care anymore.

I've been missing it a lot.

That explains why my heart are not at peace for the moment.

P/S: AWAY.

584. New things in life.

2011-01-12T01:22:00.001+08:00

O Level results?

Nah, I'm disappointed with myself.

But whatever it is, LIFE HAS TO GO ON.

Thanks to the people who have supported and motivated me!

I LOVE YOU GUYS!

JAE, WHY SO TROUBLESOME?

Chose the difference courses that match my requirements.

Interested in some, so I guess I should give it a shot.

I'm sorry B, A.S, HSS.

You're my #1 choice but I've to go on with others.

I CAN DO THIS!

FOR MY PARENTS!

FOR EVERYONE!

Call me EGO, SELF-CENTERED, SELFISH AND WHATEVER YOU WANT!

IDFC ANYMORE.

NEXT TIME, OH WAIT THERE WON'T BE NO NEXT TIME.

IT'S YOUR DECISION, IT'S YOUR CHOICE, IT'S YOUR PATH.

CHOOSE CAREFULLY.

NOW ALL THE ISSUES/PROBLEMS/MISUNDERSTANDINGS DOESN'T MATTER BECAUSE I NEED TO WAKE UP AND DO WHAT'S BEST FOR ME!

I STILL CAN FIGHT THIS.

INSYAALLAH.

P/S: There's nothing you can do to stop me!

583. Now it's for real.

2011-01-09T00:41:00.002+08:00

I'm not looking forward to Monday.

Not funny.

NERVOUSLY WAITING.

I don't want to see any teachers face.

They will either smile at you or give one kind of a stare!

GOSH.

I hope for the best now.

Insyaallah.

Another thing is that, I'm not looking forward to next Sunday.

I don't why but I think it's got to do with what I'm feeling right now.

ASS!

I don't feel like turning 18 in a nick of time.

Time is so fast, please slow down. :|

Susah sangat kan nak buat satu benda jadi.

Susah kan?

Memang susah SEKALI!

P/S: That's alright, used to being like this.

582. 6th of January.

2011-01-06T21:50:00.000+08:00

Been busy with work, not.

I'm only busy for 5hours, 6days in a week!

10am-3pm or 5pm-10pm.

The rest of the time, I'm free as a bird!

Work has been good these days.

Talking about work, it has somehow pissed me off when it comes to the pay.

7bucks per hour if you go directly under NTUC.

Under the agency, you only get 5bucks per hour.

SUCKS RIGHT?!

Yes.

Been thinking about quiting the job after O's results are out.

But I'm still thinking about it.

I love this job especially the best people are there.

Aunties lah of course.

STILL DECIDING THOUGH.

O LEVEL RESULTS, YOU'RE SCARING ME.

MAKING ME NERVOUS AND {INSERT SUITABLE WORDS}!

OMG.

WHY MONDAY? WHY?

Listening to old malay songs.

To be specific, the emo[s].

But I'm not emo lah.

Just feel like listening to it.

I'm perfectly fine except for the mood swings.

10 MORE DAYS!

WHOEVER STILL READS MY BLOG, YOU ROCKS!

\m/

I'm bored right now!

Found this random quiz on the net.

So shall do it lor!

What were you doing 20 minutes ago?

Surf the net, twitter, youtube and facebook.

Have you ever eaten raw pumpkin?

Eww, no.

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?

Last week?! Hmm.

Do you miss your past?

Yes, alot.

What are you doing tonight?

Rotting at home, watching TV.

Do you believe exes can be friends?

Yeah.

When was the last time you held hands with someone?

Last week?!

Did you ever lose a best friend?

What is wrong with you right now?

Bored and tired.

What are you listening to?

Indonesian songs. (Jiwang to the max!) Haha!

Whose house did you go to today?

My own house!

Who was last to cook for you?

My mum!

Do you know what you're wearing tomorrow?

Yes, jeans and t-shirt.

What is your current mood?

Mood swings.

Something you do a lot?

THINK & THINK.

Do you want to see somebody right now?

YES!

Who is the last person that made you smile?

Today; Colleagues & mum!

Do you find it in your heart to forgive?

ALWAYS.

Anything you're looking forward to?

16th of January. Oh wait, 17th too!

Did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl?

Are you slowly drifting away from someone?

I guess so. :/

Are you waiting for something?

Yes, waiting for result!!!! :|

Thing that made you the happiest today?

Temp-team called and said about salary.

Would you kiss an ugly person for $500?

Hmm, no.

Who gave you the last high five?

I forgot.

What was the reason you last received flowers?

My 16th, got a sunflower! :DD

Have you ever donated blood?

No.

What did you do for Valentine's day?

Nothing.

Do you eat breakfast daily?

Nope.

Are you Irish?

Nope.

Have you ever been to SeaWorld?

Where is that?!!

Is having sex on your mind?

No.

What movie do you really want to see?

Smurf. :)

What time will you be getting up in the morning?

Depends on working schedule.

How are you feeling at this exact moment in time?

Bored, bored, bored.

Sad, sad, sad.

What's on your agenda for tomorrow?

Chilling before going to work!

Any weekend plans?

Probably sitting at home, worrying about result on MONDAY!

Will you be in bed within twenty minutes?

No.

Anything annoying you right now?

Mood swings!

How long does it take you to get ready?

10minutes.

Last person you hugged?

Last person to call you?

Mum.

Last person you called?

Aunt.

When is the last time you took a nap?

Last two days. HAHA!

What was on your mind mostly today?

Someone and something.

Who knows you the best?

Hmm, sissy and whoever knows me.

What was the highlight of your week?

VERY TIRED WEEK.

Is your phone close to you?

Yes very!

Who was the last person to play with your hair?

Me and myself.

Your heart is racing, who are you standing next to?

Anyone.

Are you easily scared by horror movies?

YES!

Have you ever punched a tree?

NO!

Anyone on your mind?

YES, A FEW.

If someone gave you 100 dollars, would you spend or save it?

SPENT IT ON FOOD!

Are you currently happy with your relationship status?

YES!

Do you find the opposite sex confusing?

Hmm..

When's the next time you'll see your best friend?

Monday.

How has the week been?

Average.

Is there something you would like to tell someone but can't?

Yeah.

On a scale of 1-10 how good is your life?

Are you mean?

Nope.

How do you feel right now?

VERY JIWANG, I DON'T KNOW WHY!

How many people do you trust (Not family)?

When was the last time you were told you were beautiful (Not family)?

I don't remember.

Anything you're giving up on?

Trying.

Can you keep a secret?

Yeah.

Do you have trust issues?

Yeah.

Are you open with your feelings to people?

Friends. The closest to me.

Have you ever done something to make trouble?

I think I did but don't remember when's the last. Heh!

What is the thing that you would most like to change about you?

I don't know.

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

YES!

Were you happy when you woke up today?

Yes?!

How long was your last phone call?

Less than 2mins.

Are you in a good mood?

Right now? Nah.

Do you want to have kids?

Yes, 10years from now I guess.

How many pictures do you have saved on your computer?

More than 1000 I think! HAHA!

Has anyone ever told you they're in love with you?

Nope.

Whats the worst damage you've done to your home?

Broke something.

What time did you get up today?

8.30am.

What was the first thing you did this morning?

Check twitter via Itouch.

When did you last argue with some one?

I don't remember.

Where are you taking a trip to next year?

KL again?

What was the reason you last shouted at someone?

I don't remember.

When did you last have a nose bleed?

Last week.

Anything planned for this week?

Nope.

_________________________________

Woah, what a long post!

HAHA!

P/S: You should do something about it.

581. Goodbye 2010, Hello 2011.

2010-12-31T23:53:00.003+08:00

2010 MEMORIES.

Okay let's start with pictures because a post without pictures is like life without awesome friends!!

This was taken on 31st. They miss me alot! I got more than 1 hug from them!

I lost count! Awww! <3

(Y)

BLUE HOODIE!

Not complete, some were not here!

AWESOME PEOPLE.

EDWARD "CULLEN"! :D

Okay that's the BLUE HOODIES PEEPS!

Now will be the PEEPS OF THE PEEPS! HAHA!

THE SEVENS!

THE BEST PEOPLE OF 5C,2010.

THE EVERYDAYS! <3

I MISS THEM!!

5 YEARS AND STILL COUNTING! <3

P/S: **For someone it's 8years and counting! ;D

SOKKAN! 5years and still counting!

5C!! THE BEST CLASS OF THE YEAR!

I MISS MISS TAY!!

& OF COURSE MR DANIAL!

<33

THANKS TO THE PEOPLE WHO MADE 2010 A MEMORABLE YEAR FOR ME.

THE UPS AND DOWNS, THE THICK AND THIN, THE GOOD AND BAD.

LAUGHTER, JOKES, SCOLDINGS, TANTRUMS, SULKING, SMILES.

2010 MAY BE A ROUGH YEAR FOR ME, BUT I GOT THROUGH IT.

WITH FAITH, HOPE AND TRUST.

WITH FAMILY AND FRIENDS.

2010 HAS SO MUCH MEMORIES THAT I'LL NEVER FORGET.

2011 IS GOING TO GO WELL, GOD WILLING.

P/S: MEMORIES.

580. Held it in.

2010-12-23T21:00:00.011+08:00

Work has been quite good so far.

All the heavy boxes and climbing the ladders is like a everyday routine now.

Most probably will get the pay by tmr.

Nak belanja ah abeh!

Da penat aku kerja, enjoy sikit.

Tapi kene belanja orang2 dulu!

:DD

O levels result is like another 2 more weeks plus plus.

Not looking forward to it though but I'm looking forward to 16th.

But will probably work on that day. Probably.

Happy?

Yes, I am.

Thanks to the awesome people!

I just miss the way we talk.
The little things do matter.
Please make it happen.
:/

P/S: IMTTY.

579. Oh, you and your reasons.

2010-12-19T18:00:00.002+08:00

Afternoon shift starts tomorrow.

Oh great.

There's the good thing and the bad thing.

The good thing is, I get to sleep late today and wake up late tomorrow.

WEEEOOOO!

The bad thing is, work will finish at 10pm. :(

Probably will reach home by 11pm.

The next day will be morning shift.

NOT GOOD!

Booohooo!

I need to ask TL for one day leave between 6-8Jan & 10-12Jan.

Speaking of those dates, O Level result!

OH NO!

My birthday falls on the same month as the result.

Great? No, thats like a advanced birthday present for me! :(

Random texts from random people is always the best.

When you least expected them to text, they text.

When expect that particular someone to text, they don't.

Thats part of life I guess.

If you think it's important and right, do it.

Don't ever say the word, 'regret' to me or anyone else.

P/S: Your way.

578. You, you & you.

2010-12-16T19:16:00.000+08:00

Loving work, I guess I am!

5 brains are better than 1.

I've been wanting to learn how to play a violin.

Like seriously!

I think after February, I'm going to find a class for beginners.

Attitude.

Semakin hari semakin menjadi-jadi pulak.

-_-

Let's see how long this will last.

P/S: It's been awhile and you don't mind it.

577. What a day.

2010-12-16T01:40:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was awesome.

BH peeps is one of the best people in my life right now.

Not all was present, some had to work.

:((((

I miss B & H a lot!

Overall we still had fun!

I wished I could stay longer with them! :(

But si giler have to work and myself later in the morning.

Well look at the time now, it's 1.30am!!

OMG!

I'm not feeling sleepy yet so I decided to update this blog of mine! :)

I'm so sad that I can't make it this Saturday, the BH outing.

Thanks to WORK!

Talking about work, I finally post my timesheet! Oh weee!

$$$$$

Thanks for making me miss you more.

You never know what if feels like to be in this shoe of mine.

Shucks so much.

I got used to this lor.

Been like this too many times alr.

Same situation, different kind of people.

Yes, it's part of my life.

Accept it though.

You spoke too soon.

Sungguh kecewa dengan falsafah hidup kau.

Sometimes it's best not to expect anything.

I can't wait for my next off day!

Next week, afternoon shift. -.-'

But I look forward to it actually, I want to feel how it's like working at night.

Will end when the place closes for the night.

Bahahahaha!

P/S: I miss you.

576. I thought.

2010-12-13T23:20:00.002+08:00

It's been quite awhile since I last drank KOI.

It was a few weeks back if I'm not wrong.

Muahahahah!

Honey Milk Tea! (Y)

Large cup cost around 4plus???

Worth it!!!

I miss Blue Hoodie Group two gang already!

Let Wednesday happen as plan.

I am so sad that I can't make it this Saturday.

Thanks to work!!

Well talking about work.

Today is the 5th day I am working there.

I injured myself several times.

Thanks to the heavy boxes and ladder!!!

But anyway, I got used to it.

Insyaallah, I can do this till end of February.

I look forward to March.

It's December 13 today, 3 more days.

Tawar Hati.

You never know it until you felt it.

P/S: You could but you didn't.

575. There will always be a spot for you in my heart.

2010-12-10T23:15:00.001+08:00

2nd day of work was better.

Carrying the heavy boxes from above the shelves then put it on the floor.

Then put it back on top. Same routine

I hate doing the chips and nuts section. Leceh ah abeh!

I rather do the can foods section.

But I got to endure it till March.

I can do this I hope.

Insyaallah.

I'm listening to old songs.

Not the emo ones.

Saw something, it went into my mind for a second.

Not worth this time round.

This will not continue any futher.

Stop there, end there.

Angelina Jolie new movie is out, The Tourist!

Got to catch this movie!

Who should I invite to watch with me?

HEHE!

*WINKWINK*

P/S: It's gonna to be me again.

574. Work, work & work!

2010-12-09T15:49:00.000+08:00

Work was good for the first day!

Only first day!

Friendly, some.

Climb the ladder, me.

Place certain stuffs in order, me.

:'(

It's only 5hrs, so yeah.

I'm good.

6 days every week.

1 day off. I want to cry!

Bahahah!

Anyway it's only for a short period of time.

Today is the 9th.

7 more days. ^^

Changed my mind.

Thanks to you.

Yesterday was going very well when something just have to spoil everything.

Thanks ASSHOLE!

Whatever sia kau!

_|_

P/S: IMYA.

573. Dreams.

2010-12-07T14:50:00.000+08:00

Okay I need to get well before Thursday!

Can't be sick on that day!

Oh no no!

Nose & throat please be kind to me.

Dear cough, please go away. :/

"Now that you are gone,

I forgot how it feels like to have someone beside me."

Appearing in my dreams frequently nowadays.

What are those dreams trying to show me?

It just makes me feel as if it's real.

Someone said I was busy.

I haven't yet start work, people are complaining I'm busy.

Very bad eh.

HAH!

I look forward to Asmara season 2.

I don't know why.

HEH!

I didn't even watch a single episode.

But I did two days back when the drama already ended.

13 episodes.

I only get to watch a few episodes.

Gosh!

Menyesal tak tengok!

Watching the rest probably when I have the time.

I hope everything will go smoothly tomorrow & Thursday too!

Insyaallah.

P/S: It was a mistake, wasn't it?

572. Take me away to a better place.

2010-12-06T12:36:00.000+08:00

MONDAY BLUES?!

I hope not.

Impossible.

"Just because it's hard, it's not impossible."

It's 6th today.

Please call, pleaseeeee.

I don't think I should.

I don't think I would.

I don't think I could.

Gym later.

I got to do some workouts.

Get rid of the unwanted fats!

Gosh, I've been eating much this days.

Oh wait, I been eating 2 meals a day.

Good?

HAH!

I NEED YOU RIGHT NOW.

Probably you're reading this.

Or probably not.

P/S: ....

571. You don't have to say what you did, I already know.

2010-12-05T01:20:00.000+08:00

I look forward to next week!

Insyaallah everything will go smoothly.

Okay, I think I got the wrong date.

Aunt will be back next Saturday.

Heh!

I miss her already.

So different without her presence.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder.

SICK.

I hate being sick.

Well, I'm still strong to fight it with the help of medicine of course!

Having to say this 1001 times.

I never get sick of this anyway.

I miss you.

I don't know why, the heart wants to but the head doesn't.

ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ

I'm still surviving here fyi.

Still fighting though.

P/S: Come and go.

570. Promises.

2010-12-03T20:20:00.000+08:00

It's the memories that haunts.

Thanks for everything, right from the beginning till the end.

What more can I ask?

When you walk away, there's nothing I could do.

"Maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano."

Oh one thing I never regret was knowing you.

I never.

Everyone moves on but the only thing that makes you hold back is the memories.

Happy moments, sad moments and bullshit moments.

That means I moved on but for now, let the memories fade along with you.

OKAY STOP WITH THE ~~SAD~~ PARAGRAPHS FOR NOW.

ISH.

Ohya, Harry Potter was good.

Now I have to wait for part 2.

-.-

It's been awhile since I touch the bowling ball.

All the skills went down the drain.

Very bad!

Shall ask BH to have a bowling session soon!

I hope I got the job.

It's nothing special.

I don't mind having this kind of job, as long as I get to experienced something new.

R. Assistant.

I would love to feel how hard it is to earn money on your own.

Being independant?

Hehe, not fully since it's a temp job.

1st pay;

-Birkens

-Shirts & pants

etc.

Thank Allah for everything.

HE's been there all this while.

HE knows what best for me now.

Oh, I love this game. :P Good memories.

\m/ TPrawks!

P/S: I'm gonna let you cry now.

569. This things takes time.

2010-12-02T23:00:00.000+08:00

Attitude.

Don't just said it, make sure you do it.

Sometimes words are easier said but doing it is so much harder.

I don't feel like going.

I'm going to do this;

Live like we're dying.

Ohya, I miss AHA already.

It's normal for me to miss people.

Or more to my hobby. Haha!

I miss cousin.

Aunt is coming back this SATURDAY!

I actually smile when someone texted me around afternoon.

It's good to know that you guys are back together.

(Y)

That's what I've been wishing for.

I guess sometimes wishes doesn't come true.

Please tell me I got it.

Pleaseeeeee.

That's the only way to keep myself busy.

Probably busy to even think for a second.

Sudden feeling of going C.

HAH!

Go and kill yourself please.

P/S: Look at me in the eyeballs if you have the guts.

568. ~

2010-12-01T19:10:00.000+08:00

Because this is what I want.

Sometimes I think whatever you did was only for the sake of doing it.

Never from the heart.

I forgot how it feels like to have a ________.

Blame you for causing that to happen.

You know sometimes I just wish I don't know you.

You know what I did at KL, miss you more.

Sucks isn't it?

To have to miss someone eventhough you are away from the place.

How I wish I can be like you, trying not to be bother about this.

But I'm sorry, I can't be you and I will never be.

Tell me when will the pain ever end?

Tell me when will you stop crossing through my mind?

Forgetting seems to be the hardest thing to do afterall.

P/S: No more.

567. Because you don't know.

2010-11-25T23:20:00.002+08:00

2 more days.

Excited.

Finally I'm out from here.

Taking a break from the busy city.

Well, the place I'm going to is also busy.

HAHAHAHA!

I'm bringing souveniers back for you peeps!

Lucky lucky peeps will get something from me!

Woooo!

Cycling with Mimi was best!

My skinned got tanned.

I sweat like nobody business.

We got free Gardenia Buns! ^^

My butt pain!

Vanilla Milk Tea and Prata Fish!

Weeee!

I've not yet pack my bag for my trip.

Thanks to mum for ironing my clothes!

HEHE!

I love you mum!

For helping me ironing my clothes, I've to hang the clothes on the poles! -.-

Win-win situation eh mum?!

Hahaha!

Change of plans for tomorrow!

Blue Hoodie outing instead.

Someone booked me next Thursday!

So officially not free next week.

Job hunting with Mimi on the 1st.

People always say this to me, "You never know how S feels."

Yet I still assume.

If actions speak louder than words, how do you face that?

P/S: I wished.

566. :(

2010-11-24T19:03:00.001+08:00

Excited for this Saturday!

I can't wait!

4 days of getaway.

I hope I've the time of my life.

"Hold my hand.

There are many ways to do it right."

Maher Zain - Hold my hand.

Coincidence?

I don't know.

Let history repeat itself.

Crying is one of my best hobby?

Sadly, yes.

God knows whats inside my heart.

Only HE understands why.

Note to self:

Download Maher Zain songs before Saturday!

P/S: Emotionally hurt.

565. The only exception.

2010-11-24T01:47:00.000+08:00

I don't know why when I'm having a little time of my life, you simply have to ruin it!

Just by coming to my thoughts.

(y)

Another bump-y ride eh?

Gosh.

What goes around, goes around, goes around, comes all the way back around.

I hope that wasn't a lie.

If it is, I'm speechless.

3 more days!

Having a little time out from here.

Happy about it? Yes I guess so.

P/S: I miss having you to talk to.

564. You know it.

2010-11-23T13:27:00.000+08:00

Thank GOD for all this happiness that HE gave.

Thank GOD for giving me the opportunity to meet new people.

Thank GOD for giving me the strength to move on.

Meeting the peeps later!

Oh yeah!

I'm spending my time with awesome people before I go off to KL.

There will be shopping, cycling and story exchange!

Weeeeee!

TPrawks was awesome.

With the best people around, it was just great.

One of the best things to happen in my life now!

Jam&Hop was the best of the best!! ^^

Those who were there will know why.

My voice is finally back to normal!

Tell me there's more to come, I miss Blue Hoodie already!

I know I don't show it anymore.

But that doesn't mean I don't.

P/S: BLUE HOODIE OI! ~

563. Ignorance.

2010-11-17T16:05:00.000+08:00

If you think you're important, then you're.

Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none.

1st priority = Family

You know sometimes family just have to be there when you are down on the ground.

But I don't forget those who've been there too.

2nd priority = Friends

The best people in my life for the moment, you know who you are.

Help me to believe this time please.

Help me to love again.

~~S.S.E.L.T.R.A.E.H~~

If you want to know the truth,

I do miss you, oh wait, not you, us.

P/S: Yang dulu-dulu tu biarlah ia jadi kenangan.

562. Oh please.

2010-11-17T01:42:00.000+08:00

B.T.F.B

Remember you said you didn't want to be like that.

Look what happened.

Linkin Park

"Don't Stay"

Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe

Sometimes I need you to stay away from me

Sometimes I’m in disbelief I didn’t know

Somehow I need you to go

[Chorus:]

Don’t stay

Forget our memories

Forget our possibilities

What you were changing me into

Just give me myself back and

Don’t stay

Forget our memories

Forget our possibilities

Take all your faithlessness with you

Just give me myself back and

Don’t stay

Sometimes I feel like I trusted you too well

Sometimes I just feel like screaming at myself

Sometimes I’m in disbelief I didn’t know

Somehow I need to be alone

[Chorus]

I don’t need you anymore, I don’t want to be ignored

I don’t need one more day of you wasting me away

I don’t need you anymore, I don’t want to be ignored

I don’t need one more day of you wasting me away

With no apologies

[Chorus]

Don't stay

P/S: Liar, liar ASS on fire.

561. They can make me happy now.

2010-11-16T22:10:00.003+08:00

Seoul Garden with SK was fun but tiring.

2 cups of ice-cream!

Stomach can't take it anymore so we went off before 4.

Walked to Tekka Market to get my henna done!

Oh yeah, I like it! ^^

Dapat tahu lagi benda yang sepatutnya aku tak tahu.

Oh bestnye hidup.

Biarlah orang buat kita, janji kita tak buat orang.

I want to go cycling again this weekend!

2 MORE MONTHS!

P/S: Tiada ertinya.

560.

2010-11-15T14:53:00.001+08:00

I used to.

What a week to start off with.

I'm looking forward to tomorrow.

I'm looking forward to Wednesday.

I'm looking forward to the 27th.

Did I miss out any dates?

I got to know from someone about something.

There's no use to be angry about what happened.

It's stupid of you to do that.

Happy trying to gain my trust back.

It's like a game when you keep playing to win.

But remember you will fail/lose once.

P/S: It's a 5 letter word.

559. One step at a time.

2010-11-14T01:24:00.001+08:00

I'm grateful to God for giving me the opportunity to spent time with family and friends.

Next week, busy during the weekdays.

Weekend is specially for family.

TPRAWKS, I nearly forgot about it.

Please make it happen!

Looking forward to it.

Life's good for now.

So don't come and ruin it okay, Terima Kasih banyak-banyak.

One step at a time - Jordin Sparks. (y)

This song makes me feel good!

No need to rush.

One step at a time.

P/S: Trying.

558. "If"

2010-11-13T20:38:00.000+08:00

Cycling today was okay.

It started to drizzle when I reached there.

On going back home, the rain stop. -.-

Tomorrow, please don't rain.

I want to complete 1 whole round around BRP.

Had cup noodles and chocolate waffle for dinner.

But I'm still hungry!!!!

Going to cook myself scrambled eggs and potato wedges!

It's day 1 of the holidays.

Plans with the peeps next week.

That means I'm going to go bankrupt next week!

OH NO!

Baru dapat duit, takkan nak habiskan seh!?!

Takpalah, habiskan duit untuk makanan kire okaylah tu.

One minute it's okay, another minute what happened.

We climb so fast just to fall again?

So who to blame?Me?

Oh, that's part of my life I guess.

The blames and the wrongs always go to my direction.

We can't get this right anymore.

| (y) |

P/S: Come and go.

557. Now it's too late

2010-11-12T22:05:00.001+08:00

121110.

O's are finally over!

Happy about it?

I don't know.

Both happy and sad.

Papers were doable except for science.

I hope for the best now and pray hard.

I'm trying to figure out what it's like moving on,

and I don't even know what kind of things I said.

My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead

Picking up the pieces, now where to begin?

The hardest part of ending is starting again.

Tak guna nak marah.

Tak guna nak kisah lagi.

Tak guna nak nangis.

Tak guna lah nak buat apa2 lagi.

So tell me how do you forget someone who once was part of your life?

P/S: It's not the end, it's a new beginning.

556. I miss you.

2010-10-10T02:27:00.000+08:00

I miss everything now.

I miss updating this blog regularly.

Sorry I have to abandon you Unscrabblemyworld.

I miss cousin.

I miss how things are.

I miss the old me.

Preparation for the O's,

Not fully prepared.

I can feel the tension though.

I got to give this my best shot.

Now or never.

Dad is confident that I passed the O's and go to POLY.

Insyaallah, I'll try my best for it.

In the end it's all on me. :/

Everything.

Until at one point, I just got bored with it.

Enough of it, I guess.

I will be back on 12th of November.

P/S: Playing games.

555. Last thing to do.

2010-09-26T11:05:00.000+08:00

Cause I gave it all to you,

And if you leave me now,

Oh just leave me now

It's the better thing to do.

It's time to surrender.

When there's nothing left to say.
It's like chasing the very last train.
When it's too late, too late.

I will be back after the O's.
Sorry I have to abandon you, UNSCRABBLE.

P/S: Heartless.

554. Dying a little inside.

2010-09-25T20:13:00.000+08:00

I did.

Study session was good today!

The talks and the food too!

THANKS BABE! ;)

I have been sleeping early nowadays.

Tired I guess.

But I don't want to waste time sleeping!

I got to brush up on certain subjects especially PHYSICS!

Tonight is a must!

After everybody has gone home!

Whenever somebody asked me why, I couldn't say what's in my heart.

How I wish I could just shout out this feeling of mine!

How am I supoosed to forget when everything comes back to me.

Sometimes I feel like there's nothing more that can be done.

THANKS FOR NOT TRYING.

P/S: One huge unbeatable ___!

553. Please don't let this go on forever.

2010-09-24T20:46:00.002+08:00

Life's like this.

Prelim's result was boohoo!

Everything was like __-__.

But it's okaylah, I don't want to regret anymore.

Time to buck up and start mugging forever!

Oh wait for another 27DAYS.

And after 12th NOVEMBER IT'S HEAVEN!

Sis didn't like the way I shopped! Boo!

HAHAH!

She said I should think before buying the things!

Too bad.

My taste and her taste doesn't match! :P

Okay, my legs are BLOODY ACHING!

So many incident happened.

My foot got stepped many times! :(

Sorry little tiny last toe. :O

A&E made my day! ♥

Thanks to the places that reminded me of you. :|

Hari Raya with classmates is like next Friday!

Baik, lame pe!

Takpelah asalkan jadi sudah eh.

So what now?

I don't know what the hell am I thinking right now.

I'm like standing in the middle, waiting to fall on either sides.

"I might lose my mind for awhile but I'll be fine. Have you heard, there's this thing that heals and it's called time"

Someone gave me this quote and I have it on the back of my phone.

So now I let you choose and think.

P/S: Because it's going on for too long.

552. There's sadness behind every smile.

2010-09-19T00:51:00.000+08:00

Promises.

Oh great, I totally forgot about the speech!

No!!!! Gosh!

I got to do it by tomorrow.

And talking about graduation day, I still haven't decide to attend it or not since it clashes with dad's company busary award thing. Gosh!

Why out of so many days in a year, they have to choose 22nd September!

Macam siak ah!

Dad insist that I go if not I need a letter from teacher!

Life is so unfair.

I don't like this.

Anyway I rather go to graduation day than go to that ceremony.

Cycling earlier today was good!

Exercising, sun tanning and of course releasing the tension.

I managed to keep myself going eventhough my butt hurts after weeks not sitting on the sit.

I like the breeze especially.

It calms my mind.

I was day-dreaming too!

Haha!

One of the aims yesterday failed!

Argh!

Okay nevermind, there's today!

I will make use of the hours today wisely.

Insyaallah.

Aunt asked me along to a seminar at the Mosque.

To know the tips and how to handle the exams.

I think I should go.

There's sembahyang hajat too!

I think I know why my heart is not at peace.

And there's no calm in my mind.

Tomorrow is a must.

Tetap jalani hidup ini, melakukan yang terbaik.

Tak ada manusia yang lahir sempurna.

Jangan kau sesali segala apa yang telah terjadi.

P/S: Forget about it.

551. It's all about doing it the right way.

2010-09-18T14:26:00.002+08:00

We have done a lot of growing up now.

Everyone knows what's wrong and right.

What's good and bad.

What's stay and go.

See and believe.

Things to do today:

-Cycling

-Study Comb. Humans

-Watch TV

-Sleep.

Heheheheheeeeheheh.

For once, I realised everything was actually coming to me.

Everything explains it now.

~~ERTBERETONEUYOMESEDSOVE.~~

Sis knock a little sense out of me.

I promise I won't go back to the same old story.

And I promised myself to do something about it.

P/S: GM.

550. Oh I told myself this.

2010-09-18T01:05:00.000+08:00

There are things that can still be save.

There are things that are better letting go.

There are things that are worth thinking.

There are things that needs faith and hope.

There are things that needs your support.

There are a lot of things.

All you can do is do what you can at this moment.

I was hoping for better grades for Prelims.

But I know it would turn out this way.

Didn't put enough attention and focused towards studying.

Just passing a subject is not good enough.

I need to really buck up in Physics and Maths!

I need SOS now!

33 more days to O level's.

I can do it! Endure.

Last lap people!

The last run!

Do your best, finish what you started.

Graduation next week!

I haven't start on speech yet!

Oohh.

I had talks with Sis.

People with experience is always the best.

What she said was true actually.

Take note of the important hints.

She also gave tips for O Level's! ^^

I'm going cycling tomorrow.

The reasons are I need a little exercise!

And a time for myself to think about this carefully.

P/S: Jangan menyerah.

549. Another day past.

2010-09-15T12:53:00.000+08:00

I think so too.

No paper means no school today!

Tomorrow suppose to be marking day but they cancel it. -.-

I think they consider today as marking day.

MEREPEK NAK MAMPOS.

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky like shooting star.

I can really use a little wish right now.

♥

Because I'm trying to gt through today and there's one thing I know,

I don't want to think about you and don't want to figure this out.

Serious studying starting from tonight.

No more playing around.

I feel like asking my siblings to lock or put password on their laptops.

Such a distractions for me.

But I'll try to control myself too.

Maybe I will be alive at twitter only.

Facebook will rest in peace.

Blogger will come alive only on Fridays and the weekends.

HAHA!

I hope it works.

P/S: Goodbye.

548. I think I'm getting used to the way things are now.

2010-09-14T23:42:00.000+08:00

2nd post for the day!

I'm bored and I don't feel like doing anything except staring at the screen.

I'm trying to keep a personal diary.

I hope it will last long.

I remembered when I used to have my first diary which I threw it away years ago.

Somehow I addicted to a song.

Who's fault eh? -.-

I don't like the weather today.

It's so humid.

It's kind of sad to let things go this way.

But I think I got used to the way things are and I'm not surprise that one day I will be the one who will say the word.

P/S: Happened.

547. Until we're strong enough to jump.

2010-09-14T14:13:00.001+08:00

One night.

FnN paper was doable only for section A.

Section B & C was speechless.

Nevermind, it ended anyway.

Mcdonald's Hotcakes with sausage for breakfast.

Wanted to drink BBT but it was closed! :(

SAAAAAAADDDDDDD~

Had so much laughter with A&E.

E can't wait for next Friday!

Me too! Woooo.

I want to sleep after I get tired of the laptop.

HAHAHA!

I want to steal brother's G-Shock watch!

HAHAHAHAH! (EVIL LAUGH)

I like the blue colour plus I missed wearing big watches!

22nd, 23rd, 24th please come faster! ^^

Someone is trying to convince me.

That is good I guess.

P/S: Two.

546. It's not easy.

2010-09-13T18:11:00.000+08:00

When my world is falling apart.

When there's no light to break up the dark.

Sci(Phy/Chem) paper was ______. (Fill in the blank yourself)

No comment.

FnN paper tomorrow.

I hope it will be doable.

I haven't had a proper meal since morning.

Should I go to 7/11 and buy some ready to eat food?

Hmm.

I think I should since I will be alone at home in a few minutes time.

Mum & Dad going out to people's house.

Brother probably is going out too.

I'm having the house all by myself.

Okay lie, my grandma and my maid is still at home.

HAHA!

But still, I can blast songs loudly!

Woooohooo.

Makan chocolate jadi happy sikit.

Tapi tu dulu, sekarang chocolate pun tak jalan.

Hmm.

Last paper tomorrow.

Yeah, enjoy for one day ah!

The best thing to do now is do nothing.

P/S: I can't feel it anymore.

545. Dream.

2010-09-12T01:34:00.000+08:00

Hari Raya was spent mostly at home.

Penat lah, and somemore it clashes with the prelims.

Ngok, sape entah suruh buat prelims lambat2!

Selenge bacin!

Two more papers!

Anyway first day was spent at home, waiting for people to come.

And was spent at grandma's house too.

I look a little not my age because this male cousin which is below my age I guess, 15/16 wanted to salam but it was too awkward so I did a blur and laugh quietly.

It's not cool, I don't look old or maybe my height tell so.

Managed to collect a few hundreds now.

Alhamdullilah.

Okay, talking about studying.

I only study a little.

Yes, a little. Or better flip through the papers!

NOT GOOD!

MUST STUDY!

PLEASE DON'T SLACK RUZANNA OI!

ARGH!

TOMORROW MUST STUDY I DON'T CARE!

I don't like having this kind of thoughts.

And especially when someone appeared in my dreams.

Is it fate or coincidence?

I don't feel like using ___ ______ _____ to school anymore.

I had this sudden feeling while I was in the toilet.

I know it's a bit weird though.

I don't know.

Suddenly all this thoughts keep on running in my mind every now and then.

P/S: Action speaks louder than words.

544. I tried to do it right this time round.

2010-09-10T01:28:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya!

Yeay!

But I kind of missed fasting.

PMS fault lah, if not I think I can complete 29 days minus that one day I was sicked!

Nevermind, I'm grateful enough to get to fast for 26 days.

I ate two plates of ketupat and few other dishes.

Oh, I can't resist mum's coooking!

Power to max oi!

My house will be pack with people tomorrow.

Okay lie, only from my father side.

2-3 families.

Since my grandma(father's side) is here, it's so convenient for us!

No need to take bus, travel here travel there.

Leceh.

Apart from that, my grandma(mother's side) live just next to our block!

HAHA!

Okay a little singlish up there.

Can't wait to meet cousins and aunties plus uncles.

Kaching $$!

I'm done with ^^

Yeay! ;D

I was going through some old pictures.

I used to be so fair and cute plus the curly hair!

HAHA!

P/S: Can we make it something good?

543. Everybody needs somebody.

2010-09-09T00:22:00.000+08:00

I'm eyeing on Apple products.

Woo, the iMac especially!

I thinking of saving money to buy that.

Since elder brother said the anti-virus software is good.

I shall get that on my list of stuffs I want to buy.

But first would be Birkens and then etc etc etc.

Watery eyes and nose getting red.

I have to go to sleep ASAP!

Since today, I mean now is Thursday, tomorrow is HARI RAYA OI!

P/S: I used to.

542. I'm smiling for reasons.

2010-09-08T21:29:00.000+08:00

But what if I stop waiting? :/

Oh, the reason why I'm smiling today is because ....

Movie Marathon!

Had Mcspicy for dinner.

Done with all the kuih raya.

I found another way to get connected to the internet!

Instead of studying FnN, I'm blogging. -.- Hehe.

Tomorrow last day of fasting.

The day after tomorrow, HARI RAYA babe!

Grandma gave a toothless smile to me. :D

I'm eating french fries while blogging. :) I know fattening, so what! HAHA!

Okay enough, that's all the things that made me smile today!

I guess I got used to the way things are right now.

Maybe I or perhaps we had been through something like this before.

P/S: I hope it once before.

541. I will show you now.

2010-09-08T15:08:00.000+08:00

Trust it.

Boomerang done.

Now pineapple tart! ;)

Movie marathon today was awesome oi!

But I need to study later on.

MUST STUDY!

Nak tahu bende?

Nak tahu tanye lah!

HAHAH!

Peetpootpeet.

P/S: Already gone.

540. PMS is here! -.-

2010-09-07T17:51:00.000+08:00

Guess what?

I made up my mind.

And it's final.

Someone knows about this.

Oh maybe not entirely.

And I'm not going to mention that someone here.

Pandai2 gi carilah!

It's been like countless days and I don't want to know how many either.

Sometimes when that thing is meant to be, it will come back but if it isn't then let it go.

I'm not hoping anything at this point of time.

You should understand/know why.

Oh, PMS is here.

No wonder I was so pissed yesterday.

Ooo.

Whatever, people are giving me a kind of attitude.

Don't come looking for me when you need something.

I'm half done with FnN notes!

Yeay.

A few more topics to go and I will be done.

Oh, science needs my attention too.

ASAP.

P/S: I decided.

539. Completely oblivious.

2010-09-06T12:46:00.000+08:00

I'm rotting at home now.

Actually I'm not lah.

I'm waiting for mum to teach me to bake marble cake.

And I got tons to study for FnN too!

Should I or should I not?

Hm. Maybe I shouldn't for the time being.

One knows about it is enough for now.

P/S: This is for good.

538. I'm here without you, but you're still on my lonely mind

2010-09-06T00:46:00.000+08:00

My silence tells it all.

I swore I tried to.

It only hurts to keep hoping on something which is not going to happen.

Enough of it I guess.

It's just too little too late.

A little too wrong.

And I can't wait.

But you know all the right things to say.

You know it's just too little too late.

P/S: The choice is yours.

537. I'll remember you.

2010-09-05T16:27:00.000+08:00

So lets go back to the first time please.

The whole room looked a cleaner than before but there's still a little cleaning to be done.

The computer table, the rubbish, the guitar and etc.

I'm extra free now.

Doing nothing except staring at this laptop.

I feel like studying for FnN but I think not now.

HAHAHA!

I'm thinking about the Everlast watch but I wanted to get either BBG or G-Shock.

Hmm, no, I'm not going to buy all three or both.

I can't make the decision now.

But the everlast watch I had before broke into half.

Yes, the strap fall off. -.-

G-Shock? Baby-G?

I DON'T KNOW! I DON'T WANT TO THINK NOW!

Birkenstock.

I'm attracted to every type of sandals they have.

Can I have all?

Of course I can't.

Shall get another pair for myself.

Till now, I don't know whether this Bonjela really works.

My ulcer is still acting up.

But the pain is lessen.

I always had tears in my eyes every time I apply it to the sore area.

Hahaha! Pain oi!

Go try it then you how pain it can cause.

My phone isn't ringing nowadays.

Why?

I put in on silent!

HAHAH!

It's MONDAY tomorrow!

I'm still unsure about the outing tomorrow with the 7's.

Is it confirm yet or still on the process?

P/S: I.M.U

536. Stronger than before.

2010-09-05T01:01:00.000+08:00

I wished.

I remind myself everyday that everything happens for a reason.

Be it good or bad.

Up and down moments for the past weeks.

I'm going through everything with a calm mind.

I know it's hard but nothing is impossible for now.

I believe there's something waiting.

I don't think I can look at this the same anymore.

When it's all said and done, it gets hard.

As long as you are happy, I'm happy.

P/S: Here without you.

535. Oh it's the 4th today.

2010-09-04T18:36:00.000+08:00

I finally got to step in the Bazaar @ Geylang.

HAHA!

As usual, packed with people.

My lips are dry and my ulcer is acting up again!

Don't like it. :[

Can I cry? :'(

I want to watch Resident Evil : Afterlife!

Must watch this movie!

Shall drag sister along.

I'm craving for Kebab, Chocolate muffins and Pearly Bandong Soya Milk again!

I hope my ulcer will cure before Hari Raya.

P/S: Can I know how you feel now?

534. Keep holding on.

2010-09-04T00:57:00.000+08:00

I'll try even it's hard.

Mum decided to bake cookies today.

2 types of cookies down, how many more to go???? Clueless.

Maybe another 2 or 3.

Hmm.

Mum and dad talked a lot today especially dad.

Mum was talking about friends.

Dad was talking about family.

I don't know why but a "OUT OF SUDDEN TOPICS"

Dad keep on saying, "Asyik SMS je dari tadi, satu hari agaknye 100 lebih"

HAHAHA!

Yes, thats my dad.

Break fast today was good.

I like. :D

6 more days to H.R

9 more days for the remaining prelims papers.

MR CHENG gave us something called "ENERGY ...."

It's kind of cute.

In a package, there's coffee powder, tea bag, sweet, wafer biscuit

and another thing which I don't know what it's called.

I thought he wanted to nag or scold us but he did the opposite.

So kind and concern of him to do that.

Someone said "push your ego aside."

I'm trying my very best to do that.

I know I'm a little not me nowadays.

I don't know why.

Mood swing I guess.

If the counter on my blog is correct.

That means I think I have stalkers.

HAHAH!

Thanks for reading my blog yeah.

Whoever you are, stalkers, friends and anybody.

Did a little bit of adjustment in my room.

Shift sis bed towards the other side.

It look nicer than before I guess.

I'm attracted with the Everlast Watch I saw earlier on.

I like the black and green.

I shall consider that as one of the items to buy.

Another Birkens.

Another watch.

A few more t-shirts from Forever 21, C.O and where ever it may be.

A box of donuts from J.CO.

I need pants and shorts badly for going out!!

Tenderbest.

Bubble Tea, Cornflakes Smoothie(?).

...................

....

...

P/S: I will.

533. I believe.

2010-09-03T12:02:00.000+08:00

Physics was a KILLER!

Maths, Chem and Physics papers killed my brain cells.

Well, Thank God it ended. Yeay.

Left with FnN and Sci(MCQ).

I'm feeling lethargic now.

I think I better take a good 1 hour nap.

Buying bottles of drinks later for Hari Raya.

Tomorrow, baking the cookies again!

In the RAYA mood. :D

Someone says I'm different towards "somebody".

But it's the way I think of the person sometimes.

You changed my point of view, there goes my impression of you.

Sorry, but I didn't mean to.

Ohya, yesterday's post has the part where "It's the third Of September today...."

It was actually meant for today. I mix up with the dates.

HEHE.

I'm still in my shorts/boxer.

Yes, I know. Too lazy to go and take a bath.

Since we are going out later, I might as well bathe later.

P/S: If it's meant to be like this then let it be.

532. This is real.

2010-09-02T16:45:00.001+08:00

Maths was a KILLER!

Anyway it's over, no use whining about it.

Now PHYSICS!

I'm in the mood. ;D

Thanks to M.S.L

I'm limiting my time here.

So a very quick post but long one.

HAHA!

I have nothing left to lose, you took your time to choose.

MUSE - NEUTRON STAR COLLISION

3 more papers to go and that will be the end of PRELIMS.

Yeay!

Oh, wait there's O Levels coming lah!

Cakap salah, tak cakap pun salah.

Tak payah layan sudah.

It's the third of September today, another 2 more days.

I know, nobody knows.

I knew this was going to happen.

Be strong for now.

P/S: Forever.

531. I know I'll never make it right.

2010-09-01T20:24:00.001+08:00

English and Maths Paper 2 tomorrow.

Physics on Friday.

After this 3 papers, here comes the hols.

Yeay, and Hari Raya too.

My whole family is getting sick-er each day.

Hopefully, I won't fall sick too.

Gosh~

Must be the weather.

So humid, I feel like going into the freezer.

Today was spent good I guess.

Studied with someone from 12-3.30pm.

Thanks for following earlier today! <3

Going to continue studying later on.

Got to do something first before I start my revision back.

And that someone says, "It needs two hands to clap".

P/S: Everything.

530. Decisions.

2010-09-01T05:19:00.016+08:00

I'm awake now.

Yes I know, it's 520am.

I can't sleep yet.

Listening to No Secrets and Bobby Tinsley songs! <3

I think I know, :)

I believe my feelings now.

Yes, I procrastinate yesterday!

Very bad I know.

Gosh~

Feeling guilty not studying when there's time.

Hais.

Today is a must study day!

Someone is dropping by my house today.

I always feel bad after people made a decision for me.

Maybe I have to make it myself now.

17years of my life and I still asked something I know I would rather choose myself.

My mistake.

Have you ever wondered?

P/S: I know everything change now.

529. When I fall again, would you be there?

2010-08-31T16:13:00.000+08:00

A little too much.

Teacher's Day was normal.

Nothing special or what so ever.

I like the last part of the class celebrations, Charade(?).

It was indeed hilarious.

From students to teachers.

The hall celebrations was okay.

I was sleepy at the ending of everything.

"yawn" :O

Have to study something later after B.F.

Hmm, Maths OR Physics?

Hmm. Or both?

Depends, I'm in the mood for both.

I got to do what I have to do!

Ulcer on the lips is really torturing me with the pain!

Arghh!

When you're ready enough to start this all over again, tell me.

P/S: I don't want to _____ anymore.

528. I miss their presence. :[

2010-08-30T17:49:00.001+08:00

I miss THEM!

Today was spent FnN. laugh, talk and physics.

The rest of the period, do nothing.

Got back maths paper and Hist SEQ.

Well, for maths I expected higher than what I got.

But it's okay, there's paper 2.

There's still hope.

Oh, someone's birthday today!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AISHO!

AKA MKG.

STAY KENTAL ALWAYS! :D

P/S: If you knew how much this heart wants to ____.

527. You and your lies.

2010-08-29T13:26:00.001+08:00

Attitude much this days.

Because people hasn't been reasonable this days.

& I think PMS is visiting me soon.

People sometimes aren't appreciative.

You did it once, you did it again.

When are you going to actually realized everything you do is just WRONG.

Maybe that one faithful day shall come.

Plans to do today:

-Finish up Physics worksheets.

-Study for physics.

-Clean up room and throw the rubbish.

-Study for FnN if time is allowing me to.

Well that will be my plans today.

Since I have nowhere to go and don't feel like going out so lets rot at home.

P/S: One thing.

2010-08-28T20:22:00.000+08:00

Gosh~

Please feel free to hurt me again.

_|_

After one done, another comes by.

Have fun arguing with me.

Really testing my patience.

Come on keep searching all my flaws and remember I'm not perfect so is YOU!

Argh!

Let me go.

P/S: I don't need this now.

525. Someone.

2010-08-28T11:40:00.000+08:00

I don't want to feel anymore.

12 more days to go.

3 weeks and still counting.

Tell me what I hope is impossible.

I just hate days like this. Gosh~

P/S: Here we go again.

524. The days when I need someone beside me.

2010-08-27T14:28:00.000+08:00

Light.

Today was not a good day afterall.

I'm tired and sleepy.

Physics lesson was cancelled.

Went home only to get scoldings.

Gosh~

Days like this I just need someone beside me.

Plans for today

-To sleep

-To upload half of the pictures if possible all.

-To make myself calm down.

-To study physics at night.

P/S: Just a dream.

523. Time

2010-08-22T12:43:00.001+08:00

Okay, the previous post was a lie.

This will be the last post!

Oh I like to procrastinate for your info.

I'm limiting my time here for an hour.

And now the clock shows 12.20, so another 40mins and I gone for good.

I'm alone at home eventhough brother is at home, he's snoring like nobody business.

Last night was EMO night again!

Mepek ah kau nak emo2.

Hahaha!

Well, everyone needs their emo times.

Flashback.

I guess, it won't come back anymore.

3 more days, 9 more days, 17 more days, 20 more days, 61 more days, 65 more days.

I got exactly 3 days for SS, 4 days for Hist, 5 days for Maths & Chem.

(Including today)

Got to do what I have to do.

A promise is a promise.

If I don't tell you anymore, it doesn't mean I don't trust you,

it is just that I don't know who you are anymore.

P/S: Sometimes doing the wrong thing is the right way afterall.

522. I waited.

2010-08-21T13:09:00.000+08:00

Wait, waiting, waited..

Today will be the unofficial confirm last post for the time being.

I want to start studying for Prelims and for my own good for the O's.

I don't want to think anymore.

I don't know why the hell should I be thinking about this.

So for the time being, if I'm not being your RUZANNA BTE MUSA then I apologize.

Time is being rough to me, and I got no time to waste it.

I think it's not a good thing to do afterall.

Why are you behaving like this?

Why D?

I love to wait but now isn't a perfect time to wait.

Oblivious of my feelings.

Oblivious of your feelings.

I can't wait for 26 Aug.

THE SEVENS!

P/S: Confusion.

2010-08-20T20:21:00.000+08:00

Yeah.

English O Level Oral DONE!

FNN Coursework Part A DONE!

Now, revision! Revision! Revision!

I seriously don't like this.

Gosh~

P/S: Where'd you go?

2010-08-18T00:22:00.000+08:00

I can't be the only one.

I can't sleep yet!

Gosh~

O Level MT result in another few more hours.

Oh so not looking forward to it.

I still got so many things left undone.

Plus tests coming up!

Damn.

I feel like crying now and I don't know why.

Maybe there's too much disappointment in my life right now.

After one came, another come knocking.

P/S: Decision made.